piecesofzen

I realized today that focusing the mind in zazen (meditation) is no light task and needs to be done with wisdom because what I realised was that this earthly vehicle of experience that is my body is my physical outward appearance that is created with the energy of “I-am-ness”. It is an effective and wonderful instrument but my body is not who I am. My body is really one with my mind and it is a transmitter and receiver that I use whilst I live life in the physical world.  So my current task here is integrating mind and body and realizing that they are really one. Many of the mind’s capabilities are untapped, but through my zazen, I can get to the source of all that I am.

In today’s zazen, a thought come into my mind that said, “stop blocking!” I had the experience that I am consciousness, I am pure energy.  For a moment I seemed to step out of time and I became an energy observing my body. I was not my body yet I was my body - like a single yet dual consciousness. Awareness not analysis brought me this awareness, then the thinking ego kicked in and the awareness evaporated as my mind left that magical moment of now.
As I think about today’s zazen, I am seeing that energy is; it always has been. Energy is infinite and indestructible. It never started, and it never began, and it will never end. It has never been destroyed or manufactured. It exists in all things and can transform itself from one thing to another. So what can I do with energy? I can focus it, and direct is as I receive it, so I had better use it wisely!

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